Dblog Day 3: #fail

So today's prompt: Yesterday we gave ourselves and our loved ones a big pat on the back for one thing we are great at.  Today let’s look at the flip-side.  We probably all have one thing we could try to do better.  Why not make today the day we start working on it.  No judgments, no scolding, just sharing one small thing we can improve so the DOC can cheer us on!

Is it weird that my first thought was does the improvement have to be diabetes related?? I guess it should be. I mean I could be much better at controlling my sarcasm. I tried that once during lent, I decided to give up sarcastic comments and every time I failed I had to put money in a jar for the poor. After the second day I owed my jar $4,000,000. Oh that was a bad lent.

I mean I have my failures and they are biggies. Ignoring lows. Ignoring the normal guides to what I can and cannot eat or should not eat. Rage bolusing, rage low treating. The list goes on. If one looks at certain things I am a big failure. Hence the #fail. Yet these are all things I know I just need to buckle down and deal with. So I will try, without the entire judging and condemning of me by me. Yet this is not my biggest "#fail". 

So what can I as a person with type-1 diabetes do better? That is easy. I need to be a more positive presence and advocate. I guess I have to figure out where my local chapter is and see what I can do to get involved in some way. I think that is a biggie for me. I was active in Juvenation for a few years, but I just got bored and sadly ran out of time for that. I started my blog a year ago as part of that decision. I went to Friends for Life to try to meet people and dip my toes into the water, good thing Blue is waterproof as I fell in for a bit.


Yet that is where the advocacy I just kinda stopped. I think as long as I can get clearance from my boss, I will try to do some the Tour de Cure, can't do better advocacy than that. It gives me a chance to talk and sucker people out of money at the same time. How sweet is that?? I don't know, but I need to be more active. It is the only way I will feel better on some level with my own dedication or lack there of to try to be a bigger part of the cure.